The past year and a half of my life has been CRAZY. God led me to pack up all my belongings in the trunk of my car and move halfway across the country to Colorado… and then He led me to pack up everything again and move back. Then He opened doors and led me on my first international trip to Iceland.
This season of life has had its really amazing, beautiful, awe-inspiring moments… and its really traumatizing, stressful, fear-fueled, crying on the floor moments. Its dragged me out of my comfort zone and forced me to rely on God for every step (or crumble, panic, and sob until I do).
The other day, as I looked back on this incredible yet arduous journey, God brought Isaiah 42:16 to mind which says, “I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them” (NIV).
Colorado… Iceland… both are places I’d never gone before.
The past year and a half or so have felt like constant change. Each day a new opportunity; a new challenge. God has used this season to catapult me out of my comfort zone and onto a tight rope walk with Him. Some days I feel blind, disoriented–with no sense of control over my circumstances.
It’s been about six years since my father’s suicide… and about four years since God delved deep into the darkness of my own heart and mind, dredged up so much baggage from my past, brought significant healing to my wounds, and turned my darkness into light.
Since then God has led me on a journey where He alone is my guide. It’s a journey into a new way of living; turning from a legacy of brokenness and into a legacy of hope, and light, and victory in Jesus Christ.
I’m a lot different than I used to be, but I still have struggles. I still find myself afraid, and lonely, and tempted to live that old way of life at times.
But then His Spirit reminds me of who my Savior is, and who I am in Him. He reminds me of truth, and joy, and peace, and courage, and victory through His grace. He paints the future in my mind with a new goal; a new dream… HE is my new dream. My new reason for living.❤
My purpose and joy in this life is to grow ever closer to Him, and to share who He is with the world: my God, my Creator; my Savior; my King; my Liberator; my Sustainer; my Defender; my Father; my Teacher; my Friend; my Refuge; my Safe Place; my closest and most trusted Companion and Guide.
Not only is God taking me to new places on the map, but He’s taking my heart to new places as well. I feel a bit like a little child, wobbling as I try to learn how to live out this new life He’s given me. But praise God, He is a patient and loving Father.❤
I don’t know what place He’ll bring me to next, whether it be a new country, a new continent, or a new corner of my own heart and healing. But this I know: He is with me, and He will never leave me nor forsake me. He will teach me and guide me. He won’t leave me behind. He won’t abandon me. He’ll carry me in His arms to the next place, and the next.
Though He leads me along unfamiliar paths, He will guide me. He will turn the darkness light before me, and smooth out the rough places, making them passable by His strength and mercy.
He will be with me, and He will teach me. “You will see your teacher with your own eyes. Your own ears will hear Him. Right behind you a voice will say, ‘This is the way you should go'” (Isaiah 30:20-21, NLT).
If God is leading you out of your comfort zone, and you feel lost and more than a little scared, take heart: “Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; He will neither fail you nor abandon you” (Deuteronomy 31:8 NLT).❤